344 Repel
344_Repel
My love repels me!
Love seems to bounce off me in a heartbeat and gives me a heightened mood making energy.
I feel I can conquer the world, take on any situation and feel my way globetrotting to the sound of music.
There are only three ways to know love, through myself, through yourself and through God.
My love repels me is about our quest for stardom, healing in a slow and busy world trying to constantly reinvent as a product of statisticians remarks, global headlines and fear of the unknown, yet really I want to curl up in a ball and hibernate the rest of my life the way the environment seems to be winning, as global infrastructural improvements are never talked, neither known about.
On the street we see electric cars, rarely driven, unless there is money in the air, and some PV panels collecting sunlight, ground source heat pumps cleverly disguised underground; but what is it I need?
I can get up every day put on the evening news, and see the PM spin the conservatives out of altruistic lies and sleep all day on benefits; but there must be more to life than entertainment but nourishment. I want you to eat these words, whether you are at home, in a library or in an office, on holiday or just able to read in the car, a skill I have never found easy; and digest the meaning of them.
I want you to soak these words into the blood of Jesus, by hibernating with them. There is, as far as I am aware, a fable to every one’s life, the way all stories go. So, will there be a happy ending or sadness? Who knows? Let’s wait and find out.
Love repels me, was written to coincide with an album of music by myself: ‘seawatermusic’, to make a gift of sound and word. There are three main parts in separate chapters. My love. Your love. God’s love. And personal experience, the lessons learned and partisan actors who played their part in those works.
My love.
1. My love comes principally from my mother, but also particularly from two of my grandparents who did the talking. Friends without doubt have influenced me a great deal along the way but without my mother I don’t know where I would be.
2. My love is unrequited, yes unconditional, but behaviour plays its part. Just as love repels me it would seem my misdemeanours allow those of others in, from their bad opinion of a hell that did not have to happen, but through consequence and introverted inner turmoil, the system came knocking, and still to this day it remains with me to comfort; but my wings feel caught as the day the surreality began, for exactly the same reason, to take on the world and win!
3. My world is won, inside me with an inner contained contentment, but my interior feels old and broken from devices to keep me entertained. It is time to feel my way back to the past and return once more to an old friend of mine. They are all lovely and my mother asked that they were kept at bay. I regret not being socially aware and well enough back then to have seen them. But reciprocal love is always felt by family and friends.
4. My self-esteem keeps me well and so, while I could not take on the world and all of its wise men, I could still make something here to inspire those who have nothing for a © fee. And it would seem to be a success. There is no way of knowing without statistics, but life feels accomplished and complete to have tried and won, a lot of the time in solitary rest.
5. My love repels me, makes me think of healing the children, by suggesting holding the hands in the heart, above the head and below the feet, while they are lying down. To feel inspired, one really must think how one learns and lets one learn to be guided by someone bigger than them. By colour, by number, by letter, by symbol, by the cross, Amen.
Your love.
1. Your love does not repel me, but my love repels me. Your love runs through my heart and body to release chemicals that overflow with reciprocal love and excitement. I am endowed to know you are my wife, like a true and perfect love. By congregation we gather in song and dance to behold each other’s grace and to move with the music.
2. There are times when no one would know you are there. When no one wants to be there. But those times are important lessons in breaking out of your shell and treading water. You just need love. You are allowed to ask for it and to be patient in receiving.
3. Once the foray of a young man’s life is over it is best to be given all your dreams back by the keeper that keeps you going, but who repels you callously through jealousy; often an older relative or spirit guide who can only seek attention as service to you, rather than make you know now you are at one.
4. Once upon a time your life was a dream to someone, now is your chance to share and share alike. To ask all those previous and precious uninvolved questions. You can get to the truth of past failings by way of interactive communication. To act is to know not just to share.
5. The way to act among yourself with friends will always define the type of personality you are. You can try and hide the seams but plenty of those who have tried knowing all too well we were made to socialise. There are many people you will meet in life who will walk out on you and regret it, but some are a business on legs and that’s at worst all acquainting comes down to. So let your love back to those who truly love you.
God’s love.
1. God is everything of love, and can help you and I to find why, my love repels me. There is a claim at the end of the Bible chapters that the Son of Man will rise to the Highest of Highest, the Father ABBA, by being killed. His Name is Jesus Christ. To be the Christ is to be crucified. And for that attributed sacrifice he is always God after being betrayed by Judas Iscariot and so, the public lose faith.
2. God is humble and gives money to the poor from the tax collectors of the synagogues and temples of Israel. He travels far to preach in the Tabernacles, tentlike structures before the church were ever born, the 8th lamp; with an offering table at the front to give to all who worshipped and those who were suffering.
3. My love repels me; means I give and it comes back a thousand-fold. Not just by virtue of Jesus feeding the 5 and 4 thousand people on separate occasions who needed food; but by feeling I am living by the right way.
4. The truth, the life and the way, is what Jesus describes as his life to the disciples and to make simplicity of such a complex life history. Jesus did not get preaching status until he was 30 years old and then was crucified at 33. This means there is a lot to Jesus’ life to unravel, but we know he would have told you, my love repels me, to reciprocate what he describes as an undeniable fate, as the Son of Man.
5. My peace I give to you, my peace I leave with you, not as the world gives do I give to you, neither let your heart be troubled, nor let it be afraid, John 14:27.
There are a million ways to reciprocate love. Through the act of giving comes receiving and through forgiveness come our best virtues.
Love AB X
AMEN
