268 Personal

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We can all have a heart on what’s going on around us and yet feel deep inside that something is niggling at us and not right?

Something from the depths of beyond tells us we are not worthy of our own talents and virtues, no one thanks us, no one gave us a pat on the back, nor rewarded us with what we felt we were due.

Once we grow up into adults, we still get the bad habits we had as a child, and for this reason we all have a ‘personal’ attribute we hate about ourselves, but which lies low, until we realise, we are it, we are apart of it, and it is within our own responsibility to deal with.

When we are the problem itself, it is hard to see from the outside, just how frustrating it is for others to manage, and how they have repeated the lesson, to remind us we have some personal self-improvement to work on.

If we define the problem, how do we know if it is just anxiety, or a circadian clock that wants to stay up all night, or a smoking habit that we cannot put down, or a chauvinism that we use people sexually, often we are bitter and twisted about something else, and this is our get out clause, not to feel tired, old and boring.

Some people are just plain rude to us, and this does nothing for our personal healing, in terms of why we revert to these tricks of the mind. Belittlement can be both personal and from others, another reason why we use our old habits.

They think they are cool, and down with the sessions of dystopian music that surrounds us. Think about it, there is very little comeuppance for those who have achieved, yet jealousy, and very little positivity in the media and press, it is just find the root of the disaster and keep searching for the next one, for a provocative feed of information.

But this indignance of the World, reminds us we were also once sinical, and too cool for school, which never helped us. And our pubescent development leaves an ongoing hole in the heart for addiction, anxiety or misogynism.

There are many who use tools to override their inner angst of the past, but some cannot overcome laziness for many years until responsibility kicks in. The ego is one tool, but it allows the habit to kick in again. Better tools are a curfew for work, and to charge for your work, to give yourself self-respect, and to know that you have. Be strong, be positive and be righteous, pure and blameless.

There are many unanswered questions, and too many narratives to follow; that we must pray for an answer, and we must pray we are getting it right. So many downtrodden by hypocritical leaders, and people full of themselves, that no equation will balance in the Mind’s eye.

When it feels everyone has changed around you, then your side of the effort feels ill-shamed for not getting the financial reward, but we can only put more demands on ourselves. Everyday if you try hard enough to unravel the inner turmoil, you will be closer to your dreams. But without working for your dream maker, you will not get the experience you will need to go it alone comfortably, and confidently, so build on experience.

Someone who takes themselves too seriously can be difficult to live with, but that is not to deny discipline. You must follow your heart and know that you are good enough to succeed. Some of us need so much encouragement, sincerity is all it takes. Self-direction to confront self-blame, which is no-longer valid, but a joke to others, of futile meandering to confirm themselves instead of sharing.

Some of us still would rather feel screwed up. We dictate to ourselves and do things on purpose to get out of ourselves, and into feeling recognition for a good outcome, like a made up forced self-repeal. Self-love will only truly come, when we expect very little for our achievements, but are happy to put our name towards them.

Regrets can lead to ongoing resentment, and pessimism, it is just a daily trap, until you take yourself seriously and the habit you are trying to give up and change. It will be more serious to live, but not necessarily in the dark, light will pour in, and you will be in touch for the first time with reality.

To communicate in a humane way will see us as an all-rounder, and to show empathy and compassion, will allow us to reach the level of another. Giving advice, not telling yourself off, for others inset criticism. Otherwise, you are carrying artificial stress of your own pretentious making, putting things off and giving yourself no time to succeed, as you show off.

We must hurry to get to the bottom of our anxieties and see the sunrise of tomorrow as a rise towards our own goal making, over the next two weeks to realign, the next two months, to change, and the next two years, to achieve.

The more seriously we take this lesson, the more heartfelt our dreams will come into being.

Amen

LOVE AB X